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-Gone-
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Figured it'd be nice to let everyone here know, if anyone is left!- That I'm done with this account.
I have made a new account.. because I want to snoop and come back soon.
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There will be some reposts of stuff I approve of, and maybe some new stuff.
Feel free to add me on there!
I have made a new account.. because I want to snoop and come back soon.
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<<♥There will be some reposts of stuff I approve of, and maybe some new stuff.
Feel free to add me on there!
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Just cleaning out the old.
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-Depressed.-
5 min read
As you all know... I've been out of touch as of late.
And seeing as how... I can't find my friends right now and my mind is about to melt... I'll fill anyone willing to listen in on things that have been going on as of late.
Anyone who knows me knows I have a mentally challenged brother, he's always been a handful, recently in a attempts to make him less harmful to himself and others, he's been taken off quite a few meds and put on a new one. The new one caused a huge change in him,... only problem now is he sleeps all the time... If he's not up and doing something he sits there practically drooling on himself. Then it mellowed out, and he was doing really good for a while, no problems with the drowsiness or with behaviors. Recently, he's back to normal... back to worrying about if he hurt himself or his teachers at school.
School for me... Three AP classes this year, a bunch of honors classes. I'm thoroughly stressed out when you add my homelife into play, and I think it's showing in my grades. I get home, start homework at 3pm- and sometimes I'm not done with homework til 10pm. I tried to drop an AP class, and was told no.. I'm struggling there but making it through just barely I guess. Bad grades is new to me, it's pretty depressing, but for now I dunno if it can be helped.
Now... for my personal life.
My mom is with this complete loser boyfriend. She's been with him for 8 months? And I still can't stand the guy. Sure sometimes he does nice things and helps her around the house. But every single day, they argue. He has no trust in her, he always makes her cry and yells at her, he has severe control issues. I mean.. a few weeks ago, I picked out a Halloween card for my mom to send out to some family friend of ours.. Halloween.. ya know.. the card says... "Happy Halloween! From your favorite freak!" with a picture of Frankenstein on it... and as shes filling it out.. he takes it and rips it up... he said it was dirty... seriously? I just want my mom to be happy.. and this guy seems to want to change everything about her.. I love her the way she is.. so does everyone else that meets her. She says she doesn't wanna be alone.. well whatever the relationship she's in right now is... it isn't love.
To add to all of that.. my grandfather... had a stroke about a week ago. The next day, he had no short term memory... couldn't even tell you where he was or who came to visit them even if they were there only an hour earlier. He ended up getting his memory back... he was doing good. He needed to get a pacemaker put in. And he had to get an artery un-blocked. He got home today... hopefully he'll be doing better. He scared everyone a great deal.
Along with my grandpa getting home today- my abuelo is now in the hospital. A heart attack. Last I heard he's in severe pain- going in for a catscan because it's hard to get clear readings on his heart because he's had other heart surgery and already has a pacemaker. I'm terrified and I really hope he makes it home soon and will get better quickly. -- The guess is, he had the heart attack when his son called to tell him he was in jail. His son is in jail, because his gold-digging wife put out a warrant for his arrest for domestic abuse. She was the one cheating, leaving scars on his face, and chasing him around the house with knives. His parents take care of their daughter everyday while they work. How could she do that to them? She put my abuelo in the hospital- the man that watches her daughter every day while she goes out and cheats on their son and gets him arrested. Oh, and to add to it... my abuelo's son, my uncle, is in jail right now.. with a really high bail out... and he doesn't have his diabetes medicine, and he's having issues right now- but his parents can't bring him anything- they're in the ER. I can only hope for the best and that everything ends well. I won't even consider something happening to my abuelo, I know he is strong and he will be home and well soon.
That is how things are right now. I'll skip the petty stuff that every teenager deals with. I'm a little lonely right now- and quite an emotional mess- and there's no one to talk to. If you've taken the time to read my journal- thank you and I do hope you and your family are doing well. The same goes to you who didn't read it.
Take care.
I'll try to update more often.
Have a lovely weekend everyone.
And seeing as how... I can't find my friends right now and my mind is about to melt... I'll fill anyone willing to listen in on things that have been going on as of late.
Anyone who knows me knows I have a mentally challenged brother, he's always been a handful, recently in a attempts to make him less harmful to himself and others, he's been taken off quite a few meds and put on a new one. The new one caused a huge change in him,... only problem now is he sleeps all the time... If he's not up and doing something he sits there practically drooling on himself. Then it mellowed out, and he was doing really good for a while, no problems with the drowsiness or with behaviors. Recently, he's back to normal... back to worrying about if he hurt himself or his teachers at school.
School for me... Three AP classes this year, a bunch of honors classes. I'm thoroughly stressed out when you add my homelife into play, and I think it's showing in my grades. I get home, start homework at 3pm- and sometimes I'm not done with homework til 10pm. I tried to drop an AP class, and was told no.. I'm struggling there but making it through just barely I guess. Bad grades is new to me, it's pretty depressing, but for now I dunno if it can be helped.
Now... for my personal life.
My mom is with this complete loser boyfriend. She's been with him for 8 months? And I still can't stand the guy. Sure sometimes he does nice things and helps her around the house. But every single day, they argue. He has no trust in her, he always makes her cry and yells at her, he has severe control issues. I mean.. a few weeks ago, I picked out a Halloween card for my mom to send out to some family friend of ours.. Halloween.. ya know.. the card says... "Happy Halloween! From your favorite freak!" with a picture of Frankenstein on it... and as shes filling it out.. he takes it and rips it up... he said it was dirty... seriously? I just want my mom to be happy.. and this guy seems to want to change everything about her.. I love her the way she is.. so does everyone else that meets her. She says she doesn't wanna be alone.. well whatever the relationship she's in right now is... it isn't love.
To add to all of that.. my grandfather... had a stroke about a week ago. The next day, he had no short term memory... couldn't even tell you where he was or who came to visit them even if they were there only an hour earlier. He ended up getting his memory back... he was doing good. He needed to get a pacemaker put in. And he had to get an artery un-blocked. He got home today... hopefully he'll be doing better. He scared everyone a great deal.
Along with my grandpa getting home today- my abuelo is now in the hospital. A heart attack. Last I heard he's in severe pain- going in for a catscan because it's hard to get clear readings on his heart because he's had other heart surgery and already has a pacemaker. I'm terrified and I really hope he makes it home soon and will get better quickly. -- The guess is, he had the heart attack when his son called to tell him he was in jail. His son is in jail, because his gold-digging wife put out a warrant for his arrest for domestic abuse. She was the one cheating, leaving scars on his face, and chasing him around the house with knives. His parents take care of their daughter everyday while they work. How could she do that to them? She put my abuelo in the hospital- the man that watches her daughter every day while she goes out and cheats on their son and gets him arrested. Oh, and to add to it... my abuelo's son, my uncle, is in jail right now.. with a really high bail out... and he doesn't have his diabetes medicine, and he's having issues right now- but his parents can't bring him anything- they're in the ER. I can only hope for the best and that everything ends well. I won't even consider something happening to my abuelo, I know he is strong and he will be home and well soon.
That is how things are right now. I'll skip the petty stuff that every teenager deals with. I'm a little lonely right now- and quite an emotional mess- and there's no one to talk to. If you've taken the time to read my journal- thank you and I do hope you and your family are doing well. The same goes to you who didn't read it.
Take care.
I'll try to update more often.
Have a lovely weekend everyone.
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I dunno.
1 min read
I need.
Ideas.
When things seem to be falling apart. There's three things I do.
-I whine.
-I play WoW.
-I do "art."
I need ideas for the third.
Please and Thank you.
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